I'm going back to Sbu and what a week I had. I was 80% close to getting my tattoo of a rose. Yes a blue roseeeee.
I've been contemplating whether I should get it for a month. A blue rose represents mystery and because it is not a natural dye, it symbolizes impossiblity and imagination. Now your thinking where have I seen a blue rose and wht would I permenantly on my body. I seen it last summer on the corner of 51st and 10th ave. I fell in love and was captured by its deep dark shade of blue. I didn't bother sniffing it or holding it any longer than I was glaring.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
androblogger
good thing I downloaded an application worthy of using frequently. I have the androblogger app. on my front screen, so my thoughts will always be with you.
to sum my day it was long, and my feet are aching. looking forward to yoga. whenever it happens.
to sum my day it was long, and my feet are aching. looking forward to yoga. whenever it happens.
Monday, March 1, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Carrie Bradshaw: Women of a New Age
Carrie Bradshaw: Woman of a New Age
Not only is she the sex-columnist for The New York Star, Carrie Bradshaw is the voice for most single women living in New York City. A member of the New York Glitterati (elite society), she is known for setting fashion trends and being infatuated with Manolo Blahnik shoes. Each episode is told through her vision; it begins with a voiceover of the present state of the characters (also a brief description of the setting), and how Carrie is feeling that day. One reason why she is a likeable character is because of her courage; she is not afraid to reveal her inner-most thoughts on the keyboard because it allows her readers to connect with her on a personal level. She is a simple, open-minded, independent woman who takes pleasure in indulging in all of life’s pleasures; she is a staple to clubs/bars and dining out at restaurants with her three best friends; Miranda Hobbes, Samantha Jones, and Charlotte York. Throughout the series, Carrie Bradshaw the voice of independence is constantly questioning ideas and scenarios of romance and sexuality. Through the use of language, visual rhetoric, and cultural signifiers, we can read the character of Carrie as a primary example of a woman who is living in a post-feminist era because she goes against the traditional roles and stereotypes of women being housewives, fragile, and dependent and inferior to men.
The theme for “Sex in the City” was inspired by Candace Bushnell, a columnist for New York Observer in the early 90s. Bushnell, the real life alter ego of Carrie, represents a step forward for women liberation and the ability to advance in life choices. Carrie, a single writer, has the ability to afford to live in Manhattan’s pricey neighborhood (Upper East Side) and consume high brand clothing and shoes. She goes on vacations, enjoys being pampered, attends fashion shows, has connections to different locations in NYC and keeps a circle of friends who are financially stable as well. Miranda Hobbes, a graduate of Harvard Law, is a successful business woman who owns her own apartment on the Upper West Side. Charlotte York, also known as Park Avenue Pollyanna, is an Art Dealer who graduated from Smith College with a degree in Art. Samantha Jones, the oldest and most sexually confident of the foursome, is a Public Relations Executive. Although these women are very similar in class and background, they share different views on life and love.
During their weekly brunch, they gossip and discuss one another’s sexcapades. The discussions are insightful because Carrie and her friends bring humor to their personal issues. Samantha, the sexual-deviant is every man’s fantasy and every wife’s nightmare, “You dated Mr. Big. I'm dating Mr. Too Big.” And Miranda, who is cynical and has a more realistic approach to love “soul mates only exist in the Hallmark aisle of Duane Reade Drugs”. Charlotte, despite a divorce and a miscarriage is the most optimistic of the group, “What if we were each other's soul mates? Then men could just be these great sweet guys to have fun with." SATC goes beyond the norm and breaks certain stereotypes of affluent women; we would not expect them to go through the same struggles and face rejection as the average person encounters. Society is use to seeing affluent women having money, labels, and a mortgage, but I don’t recall watching a show that portrays them as strong, powerful individuals who are not only materialistic, but have similar desires as every woman; everlasting love and happiness.
It may have taken a while to accept Carrie because she plays a role different from other female protagonists on TV. In contrast, Carrie also fits the “stereotypes” of women; she is nurturing, enjoys shopping for shoes and diamonds, clumsy, vulnerable in relationships and emotional. I don’t see any of these qualities as downfalls because it shows that as humans we have flaws. Another reason, why Carrie represents a powerful woman in society is because, despite her dynamic entourage and fast paced work schedule, she is the girl next door. In several episodes, we see Carrie doing regular things; jogging in Central Park, taking her ex-fiancé’s dog, Pete, for a walk in the neighborhood, whistling for yellow taxis, buying breakfast from a newspaper stand, and eating pizza and Chinese takeout.
When I began watching the show, I, like most viewers, did not pay attention to the visual appearance of its characters and overlooked important details. Carrie is a chain smoker who tries to quit in the later seasons, does not wear excessive makeup nor spend time on grooming her hair, does not cook, mostly wears comfortable clothing (white tee shirt) around the house, and viewers never see Carrie actually purchasing her clothes. We have no indication of where she lived before settling in the “Big Apple,” and how she started her column. These realizations did not occur until I noticed the change in her appearance. In the earlier seasons of SATC, Carrie wore generic clothing and little or no makeup. Her hair was a beach blonde color and almost always frizzy; whereas, in the later seasons her hair is straight and sandy brown/blonde. As the seasons progressed, the show gained popularity and Carrie began wearing designer clothes, shoes, jewelry and handbags like Dolce & Gabbana, Fendi, Christian Louboutin, Oscar De La Renta, etc. According to Dave Rinehart’s, “Sex Sells: a Marxist Criticism and Sex and the City”, “the show has functioned as a go-to source for fashion tips among viewers who can afford to, both financially and physically wear the same items.” Every season, Carrie makes a statement; whether it is a nameplate necklace, knee high boots or a knitted hat, she is always renovating her style.
The change in Carrie’s visual appearance raises questions about how people perceive women in the new millennium. In my opinion, people will only view Carrie as a sex crazed, consumer because they cannot look beyond her labels. In this day in age, a woman’s wardrobe says a lot about her lifestyle and power. According to an article by Annette Fuentes “Out of Style Thinking: Female Politics and Fashion,” she says “To focus on their attire, the cut of their clothes… is to be in danger of trivializing who they are, the important role they play and the meaning behind women’s advancement to positions of power: That is, we’re moving to a true democracy of shared leadership.”
Besides being a source for fashion and advocate to women liberation, one can make great judgment about Carrie through use of language. The most used technique of the show is voice over. Can you imagine what SATC would’ve been like without it? Some of the best quotations come from the opening words of Carrie, “I revealed too much too soon, I was emotionally slutty”. Sometimes the viewer gets a deeper understanding of Carrie’s emotion, than they would from dialogue. She speaks in first and third person, and alternates in between scenes. To help the viewer understand the scene, she analyzes and gives her point of view. SATC would not have reached its level of success without its reality; we’ve witnessed hangovers, emotional breakdowns, and heartache. Carrie is the most expressive when she is writing for her column. On one episode “My Motherboard, My Self”, Carrie’s computer system crashes as she loses unsaved data. She loses her sanity for two days while her PC is with a technical service company.
Every season, we see Carrie in and out of the dating scene; dinners, flings, and relationships. As the sun sets or drifts into night, she reminisces and recaptures the highlights of her day in “Sex and the City”. We see her true identity in her writing and her honesty allows viewers to open up and accept their own feelings. Carrie is a reliable character because she never misleads her audience. She is depicted as a strong-headed individual whose talent of writing gives inspiration to women in New York City that there is everlasting love and happiness. Carrie Bradshaw is the voice of independence because she has the confidence to be a back bone for her best friends and commit to a marriage; she decides what is best for her.
Not only is she the sex-columnist for The New York Star, Carrie Bradshaw is the voice for most single women living in New York City. A member of the New York Glitterati (elite society), she is known for setting fashion trends and being infatuated with Manolo Blahnik shoes. Each episode is told through her vision; it begins with a voiceover of the present state of the characters (also a brief description of the setting), and how Carrie is feeling that day. One reason why she is a likeable character is because of her courage; she is not afraid to reveal her inner-most thoughts on the keyboard because it allows her readers to connect with her on a personal level. She is a simple, open-minded, independent woman who takes pleasure in indulging in all of life’s pleasures; she is a staple to clubs/bars and dining out at restaurants with her three best friends; Miranda Hobbes, Samantha Jones, and Charlotte York. Throughout the series, Carrie Bradshaw the voice of independence is constantly questioning ideas and scenarios of romance and sexuality. Through the use of language, visual rhetoric, and cultural signifiers, we can read the character of Carrie as a primary example of a woman who is living in a post-feminist era because she goes against the traditional roles and stereotypes of women being housewives, fragile, and dependent and inferior to men.
The theme for “Sex in the City” was inspired by Candace Bushnell, a columnist for New York Observer in the early 90s. Bushnell, the real life alter ego of Carrie, represents a step forward for women liberation and the ability to advance in life choices. Carrie, a single writer, has the ability to afford to live in Manhattan’s pricey neighborhood (Upper East Side) and consume high brand clothing and shoes. She goes on vacations, enjoys being pampered, attends fashion shows, has connections to different locations in NYC and keeps a circle of friends who are financially stable as well. Miranda Hobbes, a graduate of Harvard Law, is a successful business woman who owns her own apartment on the Upper West Side. Charlotte York, also known as Park Avenue Pollyanna, is an Art Dealer who graduated from Smith College with a degree in Art. Samantha Jones, the oldest and most sexually confident of the foursome, is a Public Relations Executive. Although these women are very similar in class and background, they share different views on life and love.
During their weekly brunch, they gossip and discuss one another’s sexcapades. The discussions are insightful because Carrie and her friends bring humor to their personal issues. Samantha, the sexual-deviant is every man’s fantasy and every wife’s nightmare, “You dated Mr. Big. I'm dating Mr. Too Big.” And Miranda, who is cynical and has a more realistic approach to love “soul mates only exist in the Hallmark aisle of Duane Reade Drugs”. Charlotte, despite a divorce and a miscarriage is the most optimistic of the group, “What if we were each other's soul mates? Then men could just be these great sweet guys to have fun with." SATC goes beyond the norm and breaks certain stereotypes of affluent women; we would not expect them to go through the same struggles and face rejection as the average person encounters. Society is use to seeing affluent women having money, labels, and a mortgage, but I don’t recall watching a show that portrays them as strong, powerful individuals who are not only materialistic, but have similar desires as every woman; everlasting love and happiness.
It may have taken a while to accept Carrie because she plays a role different from other female protagonists on TV. In contrast, Carrie also fits the “stereotypes” of women; she is nurturing, enjoys shopping for shoes and diamonds, clumsy, vulnerable in relationships and emotional. I don’t see any of these qualities as downfalls because it shows that as humans we have flaws. Another reason, why Carrie represents a powerful woman in society is because, despite her dynamic entourage and fast paced work schedule, she is the girl next door. In several episodes, we see Carrie doing regular things; jogging in Central Park, taking her ex-fiancé’s dog, Pete, for a walk in the neighborhood, whistling for yellow taxis, buying breakfast from a newspaper stand, and eating pizza and Chinese takeout.
When I began watching the show, I, like most viewers, did not pay attention to the visual appearance of its characters and overlooked important details. Carrie is a chain smoker who tries to quit in the later seasons, does not wear excessive makeup nor spend time on grooming her hair, does not cook, mostly wears comfortable clothing (white tee shirt) around the house, and viewers never see Carrie actually purchasing her clothes. We have no indication of where she lived before settling in the “Big Apple,” and how she started her column. These realizations did not occur until I noticed the change in her appearance. In the earlier seasons of SATC, Carrie wore generic clothing and little or no makeup. Her hair was a beach blonde color and almost always frizzy; whereas, in the later seasons her hair is straight and sandy brown/blonde. As the seasons progressed, the show gained popularity and Carrie began wearing designer clothes, shoes, jewelry and handbags like Dolce & Gabbana, Fendi, Christian Louboutin, Oscar De La Renta, etc. According to Dave Rinehart’s, “Sex Sells: a Marxist Criticism and Sex and the City”, “the show has functioned as a go-to source for fashion tips among viewers who can afford to, both financially and physically wear the same items.” Every season, Carrie makes a statement; whether it is a nameplate necklace, knee high boots or a knitted hat, she is always renovating her style.
The change in Carrie’s visual appearance raises questions about how people perceive women in the new millennium. In my opinion, people will only view Carrie as a sex crazed, consumer because they cannot look beyond her labels. In this day in age, a woman’s wardrobe says a lot about her lifestyle and power. According to an article by Annette Fuentes “Out of Style Thinking: Female Politics and Fashion,” she says “To focus on their attire, the cut of their clothes… is to be in danger of trivializing who they are, the important role they play and the meaning behind women’s advancement to positions of power: That is, we’re moving to a true democracy of shared leadership.”
Besides being a source for fashion and advocate to women liberation, one can make great judgment about Carrie through use of language. The most used technique of the show is voice over. Can you imagine what SATC would’ve been like without it? Some of the best quotations come from the opening words of Carrie, “I revealed too much too soon, I was emotionally slutty”. Sometimes the viewer gets a deeper understanding of Carrie’s emotion, than they would from dialogue. She speaks in first and third person, and alternates in between scenes. To help the viewer understand the scene, she analyzes and gives her point of view. SATC would not have reached its level of success without its reality; we’ve witnessed hangovers, emotional breakdowns, and heartache. Carrie is the most expressive when she is writing for her column. On one episode “My Motherboard, My Self”, Carrie’s computer system crashes as she loses unsaved data. She loses her sanity for two days while her PC is with a technical service company.
Every season, we see Carrie in and out of the dating scene; dinners, flings, and relationships. As the sun sets or drifts into night, she reminisces and recaptures the highlights of her day in “Sex and the City”. We see her true identity in her writing and her honesty allows viewers to open up and accept their own feelings. Carrie is a reliable character because she never misleads her audience. She is depicted as a strong-headed individual whose talent of writing gives inspiration to women in New York City that there is everlasting love and happiness. Carrie Bradshaw is the voice of independence because she has the confidence to be a back bone for her best friends and commit to a marriage; she decides what is best for her.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Carly
It's a new year and I see new things coming my way. Oh by the way, let me introduce you to my roomate C>A>R>L>Y.
She's so effin COOLLLLL
She's so effin COOLLLLL
Monday, November 9, 2009
I Wrote a poem for you.
I often wonder, do you think of me? How have things been for you? Are you seeing anyone lately? If so, hows it going? Do you miss anything about home? And if so, what? I'm asking you these questions but I may never know the answers. Are you having fun in your new enviroment? Like your classes? What do you miss the most about high school? Any memories running through your mind that involve me? Why do you still write me? Are you just trying to mess with my head? Or is it that you just want to remain in the back of my head? Did I ever hurt you? And if so, how? Can you talk to me, without being near? Can you see me, without my seeing you? Can you tell me the truth and not hurt me? Why are these things so hard to do? I don't like wondering. It's bad for my health. It fucks with my head, and gets me upset. I become low and drift away from whats important. Don't have me waiting and then pop-up like everything is back to normal.
What should I do? Tell me what I should do. Tell me that you'll never speak to me again or that I won't ever have to see you. Funny? I thought so myself. Because everything is on me, whether I want to see you or not. I don't like this. These thoughts pushed far, all the way in the back of my head popping up when it wants to. Not cool with me.
So do you think of me, like I think of you? Why haven't you reached out in other ways? I swear you hate me. But its okay, I don't dislike you at all. I just don't get you, like how are you keeping yourself that busy and away from those thoughts in the back of your mind. Teach me how so I can too. Will I ever see you again? I don't know if I want to. I understand it's all about taking risk but you were a risk that I never wanted to take. I think you have too much baggage and a little too much poise for me. I'm so tired of the way I feel when I think of you. How could I have let someone like you make me feel so confused about myself. Why didn't you shake me by the head and tell me not to run? Why did I keep running from you? What can you possible have that'll make me come back and forth over and over again? When are you going to quit? When will I leave you alone? When will we meet again?
I hope I never see you agaiin. I hope I can stop myself this time. I don't want you near because you take my emotions and twist them around into one big ball fill with emptiness and confusion. Did you ever tell anyone about us? How did I make you feel? Why didn't I ever trust you and why did I waste my time? Why did I hear you call my name but see no one when I turned around? If God didn't make this in my plan, then why the hell were you around for so long?
When will I stop wondering?
What should I do? Tell me what I should do. Tell me that you'll never speak to me again or that I won't ever have to see you. Funny? I thought so myself. Because everything is on me, whether I want to see you or not. I don't like this. These thoughts pushed far, all the way in the back of my head popping up when it wants to. Not cool with me.
So do you think of me, like I think of you? Why haven't you reached out in other ways? I swear you hate me. But its okay, I don't dislike you at all. I just don't get you, like how are you keeping yourself that busy and away from those thoughts in the back of your mind. Teach me how so I can too. Will I ever see you again? I don't know if I want to. I understand it's all about taking risk but you were a risk that I never wanted to take. I think you have too much baggage and a little too much poise for me. I'm so tired of the way I feel when I think of you. How could I have let someone like you make me feel so confused about myself. Why didn't you shake me by the head and tell me not to run? Why did I keep running from you? What can you possible have that'll make me come back and forth over and over again? When are you going to quit? When will I leave you alone? When will we meet again?
I hope I never see you agaiin. I hope I can stop myself this time. I don't want you near because you take my emotions and twist them around into one big ball fill with emptiness and confusion. Did you ever tell anyone about us? How did I make you feel? Why didn't I ever trust you and why did I waste my time? Why did I hear you call my name but see no one when I turned around? If God didn't make this in my plan, then why the hell were you around for so long?
When will I stop wondering?
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Nappy headed ho
OMG...I was so close to getting my nose pierced last night. I was at the Inferno Studios, a tattoo and piercing parlor five minutes away from school. We were in there for about two hours, while Chanel was busy contemplating on whether she should get her belly pierced. She was determined to swindle me into getting my nose done, but I was nervous because I already have a keloid on my right ear and my skin may be prone to that. I mean it is on my face, so I have to take careful repercussions. The artist advised me to speak about it with my doctor, but you know all doctors would say no you shouldn't get it. I don't know, maybe I just may get another tattoo.
Fast forward to today, I slept in my bed feeling all cozy and rejuvenated from a deep sleep and being that I'm very unproductive weekend mornings I decided to watch some BET. After an hour my roommate walked in. Great. Before I discuss this any further let me just inform you that she is a light sleeper meaning no TV, no music, no phone talk, no breathing allowed while she is sleeping. OK, excuse me but I am not going to turn off my TV.
I still don't know how I feel about her because some days she can be very cool and we'll have a good time just laughing in our room and other days I don't even want to acknowledge that she is there. I feel bad when I interrupt her from her sleeping time or even tell her that it's distracting bringing over company because I don't want to come off as a bitch, but hey it's my room too.
Honestly I don't even know why I decided to post tonight because I didn't do much of anything but my laundry, go to the library, and eat dominoes with the crew. I wasn't even hungry but knew I would be once the food arrived. I ordered a 10 piece wing set thinking that I can pay it with my $10 gift card, when actuality it was a coupon that I couldn't use. It appears to be a buy one get one promotion not from dominoes but a different company who were allowed rights to hand those out. Yay for me, know I have to scrap up $6 for the wings and an extra dollar for the pizza. Seven dollars is not alot of money, but when your a student in college attending on loan money and a small amount of grants, it is.
I wish I could come up with a solution for Jacy and Brielynn because if they don't come up with money to pay for this semester, there is a good chance that I won't be seeing them next term. :(
In my eyes, money was never an issue but I guess in certain situations you can't work your way around. I was thinking maybe a fund-raising drive and the proceeds could go to this semesters tuition. But who am I kidding, how the hell can I come up with four thousand dollars in such a short notice. I don't know what to do, I feel awful and useless because I can't help my girls.
Yep, it was another pitiful day but isn't everyday pitiful in my world.
Song of the day: 2nd Childhood- Nas
Fast forward to today, I slept in my bed feeling all cozy and rejuvenated from a deep sleep and being that I'm very unproductive weekend mornings I decided to watch some BET. After an hour my roommate walked in. Great. Before I discuss this any further let me just inform you that she is a light sleeper meaning no TV, no music, no phone talk, no breathing allowed while she is sleeping. OK, excuse me but I am not going to turn off my TV.
I still don't know how I feel about her because some days she can be very cool and we'll have a good time just laughing in our room and other days I don't even want to acknowledge that she is there. I feel bad when I interrupt her from her sleeping time or even tell her that it's distracting bringing over company because I don't want to come off as a bitch, but hey it's my room too.
Honestly I don't even know why I decided to post tonight because I didn't do much of anything but my laundry, go to the library, and eat dominoes with the crew. I wasn't even hungry but knew I would be once the food arrived. I ordered a 10 piece wing set thinking that I can pay it with my $10 gift card, when actuality it was a coupon that I couldn't use. It appears to be a buy one get one promotion not from dominoes but a different company who were allowed rights to hand those out. Yay for me, know I have to scrap up $6 for the wings and an extra dollar for the pizza. Seven dollars is not alot of money, but when your a student in college attending on loan money and a small amount of grants, it is.
I wish I could come up with a solution for Jacy and Brielynn because if they don't come up with money to pay for this semester, there is a good chance that I won't be seeing them next term. :(
In my eyes, money was never an issue but I guess in certain situations you can't work your way around. I was thinking maybe a fund-raising drive and the proceeds could go to this semesters tuition. But who am I kidding, how the hell can I come up with four thousand dollars in such a short notice. I don't know what to do, I feel awful and useless because I can't help my girls.
Yep, it was another pitiful day but isn't everyday pitiful in my world.
Song of the day: 2nd Childhood- Nas
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